I’m split between two Switch games this month: Skyrim and (don’t judge me) Farming Simulator, the best zen-out pretend tractor simulator ever made.
I’m revisiting the world of Skyrim, a six year old game that was recently released in carry-around-with-you-mode for Switch, and worth every penny I scraped out of my mad money fund to buy it.
There is a broad, fuzzy, blurry, guilt-ridden no man’s land that is part of every game purchase, a place between Point A when I’ve reluctantly typed my PIN number into the credit card terminal and Point B when I feel like I’ve justified typing my PIN number into that credit card terminal. This justification comes in the form of value: entertainment value, experience value, novelty value, or just general I-now-don’t-feel-like-I’ve-wasted-my-money value.
Having paid for The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim multiple times, the math on that value equation is exponentially more complex to compute. One needs to factor in a long list of other variables not limited to but including things like nostalgia, updated content add-ons included in late versions or even one’s previous purchase of a cheat manual that is technically out-of-date but useful enough to nudge a frustrated player through most situations as required.
Ten hours into my third Skyrim playthrough, this time on the Nintendo Switch, and having kicked off writing this series of posts I’m calling my Skyrim Adventure Journal … well… actually I haven’t settled on a proper name yet so never mind that part… but, having kicked off writing this series of posts and videos and general commentary recapping my time in this overgrown land of playing with magic and fighting dragons and picking mountain flowers for hours upon hours, alas, I feel like the math on my value justification is starting to reconcile itself into a positive number.
I’m making progress, in other words, and pushing through the story…
When I bought this game for the first time on launch day in 2011, it hadn’t even slightly occurred to me that I’d even remember Skyrim let alone still be talking about it years later as a six year old title. Yet, here I am about to deep dive back into this game. What a sucker.
A misguided sense of longing for this virtual world has compelled me to pick up this title once again (in two-thousand-seven-almost-eight-teen) and for the third time restart this epic quest from the very beginning and play it through. How far? To the end? To a point of diminishing returns? To the first sign of summer weather and the desire to do something besides hibernate and play video games? A combination of all three, no doubt.
You may choose to follow along.
As the title of this post implies, I have it in my head to write a narrative play along with many parts, chronicling the effort. Perhaps it will justify my raw gaming as something more creative or enduring than just pissing away the hours pushing buttons. Maybe it can help me feel better about the expense of my buying the systems and these games with my own hard-earned money. Or perhaps it will just call me out as a mediocre gamer with a writing obsession. Either way, with the ability to capture thirty second clips and share them on this blog, whenever I reach a threshold minimum of footage– or like I said, until I get bored and stop posting — I’ll write my adventures (back) in the land of The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim.
Now would be a good time to tune out and click away if you have anything less than a fanatical interest in role playing video games. No? You’re going to keep reading. Alright. I warned you… let’s play.