What posts in June? Oh, thooooose thirty posts in June… again. It seems that for the fourth year in a row I’ve climbed aboard the daily blogging train and continued that monumental, multi-year writing effort to string a topic or idea across the vast reaches of years. Each day a new post on a new topic, but on the same blog-per-day topic as last year, creating another set of Those 30 Posts in June. Today, that post just happens to be:
June 15th // Something You Are Craving
Sometime this morning, Leon posted an awesome photo of my running group out for the standard Sunday long run.I’m not in it. I’m not anywhere near it.
I did my own run this morning, looping around the local park four times in a monotony of laps and loops and not-very-far-ness.
Is it possible to crave running?
If you’re not a runner it is tough to answer that. If you are, you probably respond with a hearty “DUH!”
I suppose it’s like anything else that becomes a big part of your life. You do something over and over, you do something that brings such positive things to your day-to-day life, and then for a month (yes, it’s been nearly exactly a month as of tomorrow) you can only do it sort-of, a little bit, and not quite normally.
And that sucks.
And you crave normal again. You crave the normalcy that comes with the thing you’ve gotten used to, and for whatever reason it’s just not there.
I ran four and a half klicks this morning. Not bad. But not normal. See, it’s not that it hurts. It’s not that I’m in pain. It’s that I can feel the edge of the pain, like I’m toeing the line of where it’s manageable and not hurting to where one step too far and I’d be back, curled up in bed, sucking back ibuprofen again to make the hurt stop. So, I’m cautious. So, I’m stuck. So, I’m doing laps around the local park to build back towards normal, while normal races ahead and leaves me in the dust.
I don’t want to be doing laps around the local park, I want to be lolling through a grassy trail, and in this photo.