Once more it is June. Again. And again I embark upon that epic effort of daily blogging, take three, wherein I call upon myself for a kind of rambling focus, picking from a list of daily topics, and with neither planning nor advance writing, strive to pepper this blog with the free-thought, free-writing wonder that is another one of Those 30 Posts in June. Today, that post just happens to be:
June 1st // Something You Have Decided
Decisions are fickle things. Sometimes they happen on a whim and sometimes they are built slowly over the course of months or years of careful thought and planning. It’s funny. Last year I decided to keep taking photos for my daily photo project, a decision I abandoned before it had even taken shape. The year before that my rambling decision involved barefoot running and the purchase of some barefoot shoes. Not a lost cause, by any means, but hardly the revolution in running I’d expected two years ago today.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s neither a new decision nor a hasty one. It’s not like I today –after spending four hours in my backyard doing even more yardwork in the hot sun– contemplated something worthy of a blog-based decision and stomped into the house, sat down at the computer, and started writing my declaration of such a decision.
In fact, I’ve rambled on about this sort of thing multiple times in the past year. But I thought it summed up this post just nicely.
I mean, I could have written about how I’ve decided to run a marathon. Or I could have easily expounded upon my quiet little decision to start taking more photos again. I might have even found the words to explain my decision to buckle down and work harder at numerous things, like studying French, or wasting less time watching television, or kicking it up another notch at work. I could have told you about the many decisions I’ve had to make lately regarding my career and my pension, about teaching a running clinic or various things to do with my various hobbies and how those various decisions relate to various family and life obligations.
But here’s the thing: I think it all comes down to one big decision. The decision to focus a little more. Focus. Pay attention to the details. To scale back my lingering attempts to conquer, y’know, the whole world and just try and master the pieces of my life I’ve gathered around me right now.
It’s tough. But it just is. And I decided it a year ago, months ago, and still each and every day I decide it again and again.